Crazy For This Girl

Yesterday I surprised the entire suite, and came to the door with a gift from South Africa -

Nici and I haven't seen each other since Dec. 30th, and she was invited to a conference at Harvard this past week. We realized it was a perfect opportunity for us to reunite for the first time in two months. The most beautiful part? Almost nobody knew.

After driving from 9 in the morning until about 5 at night to get her, we arrived at the suites, with tired bodies and anxious emotions. We entered the large suite door with my surprise; I wish I had captured the reactions on tape. Devon's tears of joy, Chelsea's arm flapping, Brittany's shrieks, and Nate's confusion all added to the beauty of her arrival. For me? I could never describe to you what having her here means to me, not in a 500 page book, and certainly not in a blog.

But to give you the faintest of looks, having Nici physically here is far beyond any emotion I have felt before. Since we started dating what feels like so long ago, but was actually only 4.5 months, she has become my rock, but also something more. Nici has been the only person able to convince me to throw my own caution to the wind, and passionately chase my dreams. When Nici is around, its not just that when you're with her you are happier, but everything you do in the day is better. I woke up happily this morning at 8:30 on my own (a feat only a large pan and maybe ice cold water could accomplish any other day). My life feels complete when Nici is around, and without her I don't feel quite whole. Living as half a person for most of the year is not appealing, trust me I know. But to lose Nici would be to live as half a person for the rest of my life. I think I'll go with the former. As hard as it is to sustain a relationship that feels a million miles away, not once have I questioned whether it was worth it.

But it certainly becomes much easier when she's here.

Her beautiful stories, jubilant laughs, wild dancing, and perfect smile have lit up a Pottery Suite that would have otherwise drowned in the stresses of University. Her beauty, inside and out, washes over everyone in the room. She's the most beautiful person I've ever met in my life, both physically and internally, and I'm not just saying that. If Nici can't make you smile, no one can. I can't help but crack a smile every time a look into those big beautiful eyes, and the jittery feeling I get in the pit of my stomach reveals to me how wonderful, surreal, and right this all really is. A world without Nici, is no kind of world I would want to live in. So for this week, I will enjoy the heights of cloud 9, and save thinking about coming back down to the ground for a different day.